Day off in St. Louis

Today was the most eventless, relaxing day off I have ever had. I woke up at around 2:00, checked into the hotel, showered, then met Brent and John for lunch. The next five hours were filled nodding in and out of sleep and cruising the web. Dinner was the last major event of the day. And here I am: back in bed again in my underwear ready to sleep. I feel like everyone needs these kinds of days every once in a while. I did actually do one productive thing today. Here is something I wrote to try to drain my head of all the thoughts I have rattling around everyday. I wish I payed more attention in english class, but, regardless, it feels good to get things out on paper sometimes. So here goes:

I had a long talk last night with close friends about pretty much everything that had been on my mind this past year. I would pay any money to have a recording of the conversation in its entirety, but I will try my best to remember the important points.
The nature of people is very strange; how it’s so easy and accepted to hate. Two relevant examples: making fun of people, even when it isn’t sincere; and hating music that is “taboo” because of its popularity, even when you really enjoy it. Almost everyone has been guilty of these two things in their life. It is just so common and widespread that it is excepted and practiced. Up until a year or two ago, I had never thought deeply enough to question it. A theory that I came up with is that most people get nervous in social situations and resort to these things to gain quick acceptance. It seems pretty easy to bond with someone over something negative (“how much I hate this person, how shitty that new movie is”). Now take a second; think about the last person you met who had a positive and long lasting impact on you. I can think of a few people who walk into a room and take it over with their confidence, sincerity, and positivity. It is unarguably more attractive than someone who exudes negativity all the time, and complains about everything that is bad and things that they hate. Confident, sincere, and positive is the way I would like to come off, and those are three qualities I aim to strengthen every day of my life.
A final thought: How come the things that are important in your head and heart never seem to come out when you are around a group of people? Everyone needs to stop being afraid and start acting on how they really feel. Positivity is contagious, and once you let it catch on, the world will be a happier place.

So there it is. I guess the bottom line and most important thing everyone should get from this is to be HAPPY. Have fun with your life. 

Here is my quote of the week, its from a John Mayer song:

"No it won't all go the way it should

But i know the heart of life is good"

Almost to simple to pay any attention to, but way too important to overlook.

Bedtime for me. Gnight